How's Your Appetite?

During this confinement at home, due to chicken pox and not other preposterous reasons you guys may conceive ;).. I've learned something about feeding my appetite.

Including today, the past 4 days saw me having the most boring meals - Ever. There's no variation, and it's absolutely bland. The food consumed doesnt veer from one of these; Bread & Milo, Rice in Soup with Steamed Vegetables, Yogurt, Plain Jacob biscuits and Fruits (Banana, Oranges & Apple). Period. I'm constantly entering the kitchen, scavaging the cabinets/fridge for food that i could possibly consume but the effort prove to be a setback. I'll usually go away sulking and complaining to those around me.

Today I repent.

Firstly, For complaining.
Watching the news of the Sichuan Earthquake victims reminded me to be grateful of all provisions that comes from God. My circumstances pales in comparison with those in a dire state of even life's basic necessities.

Secondly, For selfishness.
Here i relate the food appetite with that that's of the world.
Our culture today feeds our materialistic self-absorption, which rebels and resists anything resembling sacrifice. We often live to satisfy our appetites, and we surround ourselves with luxuries and creature comforts. We deny ourselves very few things. Just read the ugly side of me which manifested during the 4 days with the food restrictions and i can certainly imagine it to be worst the next few days if this realisation didnt occur. We've got to force ourselves to stop feeding our unending fleshly appetites. How much of your life revolved around your appetites? Appetite for fame, for material things, for attention, for pornography, for money, for successes, for beauty, etc.

We need to check our appetite.

For me, i figured this period will be good for me to throttle my flesh a little. Although it's part of the chickenpox self-care, but i hope in the discipline of denying myself of food cravings that i may invite God to work in my heart and subdue the stubborn tyrants of pride and self-sufficiency.